Tuesday, January 21, 2014

The Last tears - II

"So....It's over??" he asked.

She nodded, indifferently and continued texting on her mobile

"But... I don't understand," he said, "What happened?? Is there someone else?"

She remained silent... She decided not to answer..."Don't you love me anymore, Kate? What have I done? Talk to me!"he implored.

"Yeah!! I am talking to you... I just dont want to talk about what you want to talk about!! I'm not one of your students, Dan, that you should expect me to answer each of your questions!! Jerk..." she shouted.

"Jerk?? What are you saying??" he asked bewildered, "what have I done ?"

"Ah... No no no!! YOU have done NOTHING!! Everything that is miserable in my Life is of my OWN DOING!! I have done it! I f**ked up my Life.. I forgot how to think... I forgot about my dreams.. YOU, Mr. DANIEL ANDREW O'CONNEL...did NOTHINGGGG!!", she screamed.

Silence!! His eyes blinked furiously. He looked aghast...Her mobile beeped and she returned to texting. There was a pause, before she continued;

"You know Dan... You have always misunderstood me... and you keep saying that I misunderstand you. What does that even mean?? 'Sweetheart, I think you have misunderstood me!' My foot! Misunderstand? Who gave you the right to go about telling people who misunderstood who??.... and FYI.. its not always WHOM... huh!"

He sat there silently. "Is there no hope?" he whimpered.

"Hope... The only Hope which I hope for is the hope that I could go back in Time, and kicked you so hard in your nuts when you had proposed to me. That would have served you right. No no... Wait... I hope that instead of you, Michael had proposed to me and you would have just dropped DEAD! You know, I gave up my dreams to be a model you know!" she exclaimed while continuing to message, "My life could have been a lot better... a lot better, if only I could have ........."

"Kicked me in my nuts and I had dropped dead when I had proposed," he completed.

"Dont act smart!" she retorted.

She suddenly shrieked with frustration," What the f**k is wrong with your network??"

"My network??!!" he asked.

"I mean.. the network reception at your flat. Couldn't you have found a better apartment which has Airtel network connectivity in all the rooms?? I can't use Whatsapp.!"

"You can connect to the wifi in my flat and use WhatsApp, can't you?" he suggested.

"If I do that, I'll feel obligated and may be forced to delay breaking up with you today! And I'm done feeling obligated towards you.", she said.

"Oh... I Didn't know you thought so low of me, Kate."

"You should be thankful that I think something of you. Huh!! .. and to answer your question, Yes, I am seeing someone else. He makes me feel things which you could have never made me feel Dan!! Never!! It must be my bad karma that I was stuck with you for so many years. "

"Is it someone I know?" he asked with tears welling up in his eyes.

"As a matter of fact, Yes... You remember Sid.. We met him at the New Year's Party. The tall guy with nice manners?? The one who bumped into you and even before you could, it was he who apologised to you!! Remember??"

"Yeah, I seem to have a faint recollection of him!" he choked.

"Did you know he wrote me a poem? A poem... just for me!! Sweetest Love, I Love You So... Ah, he is so dreamy... and nice.. and well mannered!!"

No more cries... No words spoken... he shut his eyes as two icy tears rolled down his cheek. "If I am really so bad, I sincerely apologise for all the misery I have caused you. I never thought it would end like this. I don't know what else to say!!"

"Umm... For starters, how about saying sorry for fucking up my life so far?" she grimaced.

"I did apologise... but let me apologise again then... I'm sorry!"

His lips quivered... head reeled..tears kept trickling down his cheeks while she looked unmoved. Finally she said, "heyy... Don't cry... We'll remain friends.. I promise! It's over ok? Now I gotta go.. I must surrprisse my Siddd!!!"

She picked up her handbag... and never a happier woman was seen, exiting a wooden door.


"Ting Tong!! Ting tongggg!!".. Kate pressed the doorbell of Sid's house. "Even his doorbell sounds so dreamy... No wonder I love him!!" she said to herself. 

A young woman, about the same age as Kate opened the door. "Yes?" She asked.

"Is Sid home? I'm his girlfriend.. Kate!!"

"Sid?? You mean.. that tall Indian guy?? He had died a few days after New year. Didn't you know?"

"What?? But... I got a poem from him.. He sent it on my mobile.. See.. How can he die?? The poem is on my MOBILE, which was sent this Sunday!! See the number... +91 988*****50!! Where is Sid?"

"Umm... that's Daniel's number... Sid's best friend!!"

Darkness fell before Kate's eyes. Her knees felt weak and she fell to the ground, unconscious.


Daniel sat by his friend's grave... staring at the grave, carefully reading the gravestone.

"Don't stand by my grave and cry... I am not dead, I did not die"

The spring was in the air.. The flowers blossomed.. The weed grew wild... There was deathly silence. He had lost his best friend and lost his love. There was nobody he had to share with. Despirited, he slumped next to where his best friend lay..

His eyes were laden with tears..  A gentle breeze.. the final chills... and the last tears trickled.

Monday, January 20, 2014

The Last Tears - I

"So....It's over??" She asked.

He nodded while continuing to stare at the blank wall.

"But... I don't understand," she said, as her eyes teared up, "You had said that... you promised that we'll never part!"

He remained silent. His lips quivered... head reeled.. eyes blinked rapidly, lest the floodgates opened.

"Don't you love me anymore, Danny? What have I done? Talk to me!" she begged.

Silence!! The tears kept flowing. The eyes blinked furiously. She held his hand. Cold! She shivered through her tears. He breathed heavily.

"We can make it work Danny," she reasoned, "We have seen worse.. we will sail through this!!Don't give up on us! Things will change for the best... I know it."

No cries... no words spoken... The fan whirred above. He sat there stoically. Half an hour passed by without anyone saying a word. She continued to hold his hand, rubbing it gently between her palms.

"I have slowly been losing, darling," he finally said.

She looked at him, startled. "Nonsense!!!" she exclaimed."What are you talking about?" she asked, puzzled!

She kissed him softly on his lips... Cold were his lips... colder was the kiss.

He shut his eyes... two icy tears rolled down his cheek. She snuggled closer... He held her. "Don't let me go, Dan...", she whispered. He held her closer. She gave him strength... She knew it... She was his angel... She had taught him to live.. gave him reasons to exult.. moments to cry... victories to celebrate... defeats to ponder. She completed him.

He planted a faint kiss on her forehead. He always kissed her on her forehead. She felt comforted. Her Danny would never leave her...She knew it. "You're my angel".... he whispered.

"Can we lay like this forever Dan??" she asked. Another kiss on her forehead... She knew what it meant... She didnt care about the world... She didnt care about the society.. she didnt care about anything... He was there... She was there... together.. and nothing else mattered!!

He was weak... Cancer had taken its toll. But it didnt matter. He was hers.. "I love you Dan".. she sighed...

The moon climbed the night sky, shining in through the open window. It filled the room with silvery light... Their bodies wrapped in each others... The breeze sailedd in through the open window, carrying with it the music of the Gods. The Stars and planets move in such perfect harmony creating that music.... Even the smallest star sings like an angel in its motion. Souls have that same kind of harmony, they say....But because of the earthly bodies, the mortals can't hear it.. But he hummed... She heard him hum.


When they broke open the door next morning, they found her still snuggled in his lifeless arms. She knew it was over... They walked her away... She treaded softly, lest she woke him. She looked back at his spiritless body...His vacant eyes still laden with tears... She didn't cry... One last touch...She turned around, looked at the doctor and said," Did you know he loved me so much?? But tell him, I loved him more!! He is with me... yes.. he is still with me!!"

As she walked away towards the door, her reflection shone in his eyes... She walked out... and the last tears trickled..